It must be great to be some kind of artists, strong character of face and happy holly sexy hot body and look, but still good in romance, and low profile, and say hello to everyone without any perception, to be kind to another people of region and country, through the races and colors, and thought and way of life, and just have a lazy and melancholic life, and not to know that all I have were that much and happy to do every single trouble and mess I got to get.
Or maybe as simple as... be able to choose any of one you want to be and inserting one life you possibly can effort to join this your Life System, and earn a lot of goodness and do much think positive about everyone, everything...and...just have capability to be on different ways...of life...to cath every chances and luck...to have anything I want...to be more somebody else in the next time, and bidding another life to be experienced, and...just have to take a small pace into another, another some kind of life...'Till I don't know how much I like myself!!!
Arrgghhh!!
I must be a Satanic. I have wrong imaginations, and I don't want to. But it all seems more like a jealousy. I always would like to be somebody else. And it's very strongly romantic, sweet, comfortable, and save. And I always know that always better to be yourself is going to be. But then I will push over all those thoughts and I seem to be more still want to be somebody else.
But somehow I know by myself, that nothing is good. Nothing is smart, happy, funky, lovely, or gorgeous. Those really are phenomenon. Illusions, and short-lasting. But it doesn't make any sense of all. People stay in this world, this Life System, the great one life system, to be different and run different ways of life. And sometimes I was very jealousy for somebody else's life. It's low, lazy, but running slowly and sure like a catch upon a basket in a basketball game. Then after the ball is falling, you end the life and give some report in the front of Who Has Everything. Then you will be chosen, to be in good place, or worse place, to be timed out, or last forever, to be reincarnated, or to stay and watch. 'Till The Final Day is come.
I must be dangerously insane. And I don't want to hurt anybody just like I used to be. I have to find and give more chances just for myself, and it'll be hard, but...I always afraid of everything, so...why can't I effort these chances and begin to returning over? Even if in a hurt condition and shallow imaginations (oh, that last one I got to make over)..? I always think to and for and about myself. And I can only do that because I have a different life here, so, I have to make it just a good work and the result has to make me out of here forever, so I can live my life better and comfortably.
I wish best wishes for myself. All of Good Luck, dude. I always be inside you, and to keep you feel lonely but it's okay, feel afraid but it's alright, and grab hand on hand in every dangerous sessions of you life. Isn't it sound Okay..? I promise. We'll be home soon.